How good you are? Can you lead other people wisely?
God, I am not yet that good. I though I am, but once I faced myself with all reality in Kelas Entrepreneur and my own surround, I am nothing. Particularly, in the way I communicate as leader. Even though from the surface, I can be a polite boy with willingness to talk to anyone. From the deep inside, I have very bad skill to communicate as leader. My words tend to be cruel one. It happened and proved to all my KE team and family. One cried because of me. One sent me a letter of complaint seriously. One quit from the meeting and went back to home suddenly, the other one feel hurt and suddenly quite once we do conversation and showed me disappointed face. In the other side, just 3 or 4 days ago, my younger brother decided to sleep at his friend rent home at midnight after quarrel in sensitive talk about our mom. I am ashamed by myself. I think I t was easy, when I read a book of “great leader” lead people, look so natural and simple but once I implement in my real life, there is no term of “easy” any more. Everything must be considered carefully. Should I tell about this? Should I hide about the other piece? How will they feel when I talk about this topic? And bla bla bla bla bla. Just believe me, the problem that I talk you in previous paragraph still happened even though I thought I consider everything wisely. I still don’t know ho to deal with this yet. What I know is, I love being surrounded by them now. I am gratitude to have them who can give input when I got wrong direction. They talked to me. Then we try to fix it, together. God, or it just happened like this? I don’t know my mistake, I make a mistake, then somebody hurt then I asked them to talk to me then we fix it together, is that stage that I have to face for? Actually, I don’t mean to be cruel. Not at all. I guess I just see people from my own standard, no bargain. So, the story behind other people emotion is never taking into account. Remember that I easy to disparage other people? I just found that these are my dark side. But, I don’t want to be so. God, your Muhammad is the greatest role model, I know. I am reading his story from the reliable book now. I do really appreciate what He has done. He is the greatest leader I have ever known. I just want to be like him, as warm as him when talked to his beloved one, as wise as him while talk to team, as care as him to talk to other people, as brave as him to bear down the badness. I know I am nothing, but I want to learn more. I just want to be great person for human being, and for YOU. I don’t want make other people hurt, because when I know people hurt by me, I will become a damage one. I don’t like that feeling, I don’t want trapped in that circumstance anymore. Really uncomfortable…! God, I am ready to learn, I am ready to grow, I am ready to be closer.
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I am Indonesian. My name is Diogi. So interest with business and entrepreneurship. I am creating Social Business to find the best method to teach entrepreneurship and help people to meet their potential for facing future. Like traveling and writing. Archives
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