Dear God,
I had been not written for quite long time. It doesn’t mean my life okay, i have been busy for new chapter of my life, living my dream and build a school of entrepreneurship at Entjou. God, Alhamdulillah we passed the first month of entjou full time service. I do really enjoy the excitement. It is like roller coaster, the emotion is fluctuate, sometime bear me down. But, i am still stand strong after. For sure, because of you. More i act and deepening this social business with entjou ranger, the more i respect them who success and run their own business based on their passion. It is really not easy. After about three years (since 2016) living with the idea to make better education with entrepreneurship, this is one of the significant month where i have been facing my own risk valley of being passionate people with serious action. I the last three years, i fell excited and safe, time make all of the movement become so limited. Now, i have my own full time to develop entjou, but i have no safe area. But, the excitement and the clarity of mission never fails to safe me from unsafe feeling. God, I just want to tell you something that now i am afraid. People may shock, but is true, do really real. I am afraid when i compare my self with other people. Currently, i have no income of course. I am living by my remind balance in my bank account. I guess it can safe me for two more month. I should tighten expenses. No more cinema, no more new book, no more cafe and no more new outfit. When i think about this all restrictions i will compare my self with all of my circle. It is easy to me for being sensitive, i can compare my “restrict ed life” with my friends happiness. Then, i will imagine that if i am still working with other company, i will not limit my self with this such stuff. I will end-up my self with very big worry in my head. And know what? I already think hundreds time to give up, to continue my life with very certain job and security. I may not worry for economic and my basic need requirement. But, i always stop in the point when i ask my self “who will change education system when i stop?, do other people think about this as serious as i am?” i have no answer of this question, after that i will boost my spirit and fight more. God, i know that i am not same with my mostly friend. I don t know why should YOU give this mission for my life. I just know that have to realize that mission. I just want my next generation know how precious they are and prove to everyone that education system must focus on student potential, entrepreneurship should be involved in everyone discovery process of finding their potential. Furthermore, i know that my team is also in suffering condition. Their economic maybe worst than mine. Should we give up due to this money restriction? I don’t want, God, please i don’t want give up. We will find money to live our dream. God, i don’t want to be other. I don’t want to compare my self with other, because i am not them, an they have no mission like us. Now, i am asking you keep my emotion stable and my trigger improving. I don’t want bear down because of money. I want to be a winner of this journey. Please, show us your direction where should we dig deeper to find our pond. I will do anything through all your direction to live this dream. I am ready, InsyaAllah i will always ready. Let’s shout down this basic need obstacle and let spread the entrepreneurship education spirit for better education system....! this mission could not be compare with others, because this is not theirs. God, i need your help.
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I am Indonesian. My name is Diogi. So interest with business and entrepreneurship. I am creating Social Business to find the best method to teach entrepreneurship and help people to meet their potential for facing future. Like traveling and writing. Archives
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