Dear God…
I have just found term of “Dzolim” this week, found it as literally term. I just feel it fit with me now. Do I dzolim with myself and other people else now? . I think I am, I do believe I am. I am working now, working as full employee in other people company , I am helping other people live his dream. But, I have my own dream. You know how it is fell?. Teribble. I am like a zombie, doing these doing those, living in a drama, trying to control the emotional pressure, making a relation of client that I have never mean to be made, chasing the time making a deadline, tricking the time to do KE task in rest of the time everyday. After that this morning the one who responsible of every path of this company telling my “job” is worst and warn in group to change the position of mine. Perfect, the drama is perfect…! One of the best results that I got is, I don’t want to be like him the one who we called “boss” in this company. I learn a lot from him; learn to do not like he did. God… When the exactly time that I have quit, to live in my own dream, to realize my mission, to be the full employee in my own company. I know, I am not that scare but I admit I am not that dare. I am trapped; I have been locked in my own situation that called “comfort”. As worker, I am dying now. I just feel that I am scare of not having monthly salary. Who will pay my bill, who will pay for our team meeting Dinner. But God, You surely know what I feel. I am doing Dzolim for myself, I am doing something that I do not really like, I force myself to love this things but I can’t. Then it effect to my work quality. I am working like zombie. Then, I dzolim also to this company which hire me as professional. They pay me, give me money but I can show my sincere work. So here I go, please give me advice. I will quit in the end of December, I will quit in the end of this year. I will give my full effort to be good worker in remain, then I will tighten my wallet and my expenses to earn money. I have to collect 10,000,000 in these five months. I have to. My working hours is 08.00-17.30 in week day, and 08.00-12.00 on Saturday. I will send report to this company at 08.00 at 17.00 in every day. I will. But, I will not doing any longer task that I decided not as mine. I will not. After working hours I will do all things before sleep and when I woke up (before go to work), I will dedicate myself for Kelas Entrepreneur and making my Kelas Entrepreneur deadline. So I will make really complete strategy, control the cost, earn money, doing the best thing that I can do in Kelas Entrepreneur. I have to fix my relation to you As well in this 5 month. I have to escape, longer I stay in this company means will be longer people wait for our action. I know I am not belongs to this company, I don’t want be dzalim wto myself and to my owner. Okay fix, let make complete strategy for 31 December 2018.
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I am Indonesian. My name is Diogi. So interest with business and entrepreneurship. I am creating Social Business to find the best method to teach entrepreneurship and help people to meet their potential for facing future. Like traveling and writing. Archives
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